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Just when I was getting tired of everyone else’s stupid fucking cryptic posts:
I make myself really depressed looking at photos of other people doing things that I had done once or that I wish I’d done. For example, I’ve just spent twenty minutes looking at photos of a couple of students who just graduated and are on what appears to be a delightful eurotrip. And all I can think is fuck dammit I wish I could have run off to Europe after my high school graduation. Which turns into thinking about how I finished college in three years instead of four and how sometimes I wish I’d done things differently, taken my time a little. Because maybe if I’d slowed down and smelled the roses a bit then I wouldn’t be in this scared shitless static mess I’m in now. I wouldn’t be on a permanent ‘well I finished college early so don’t fucking rush me to get on with the rest of my life’ thing.
Somtimes I wish I could be 18 again and do everything differently.
But then, my whole life would be different by now, wouldn’t it?
